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argument, book, burned, Caitlin Lambert, excuses, explicit content, fast forward, heart, mistakes, old poetry, original poetry, past, play, reading, record, rewind, scars
Can you only replace what you couldn’t say?
Rewind time, add words, and press play
Never once more another look alike
Stray away into one last stormy night
Create a few extra excuses to make sure I’m okay
Call me what you want; it’s just a different day
The past tells me I can’t pretend
To only watch it and review it again
Controlled only knowing I will relive it
Forced images pushed in my face; struck and hit
Somehow the charade will come to an end
Hearts sit in the ground never to ascend
I find pieces of myself that can’t fit anymore
The lock melted shut to my only escape door
Can I burn the book of pages that I read too often?
Tear the rest apart to rot in the trashcan bin
Now tied up in an argument of nevermore
To keep remembering; my scars long to be sore
As I press “fast-forward,” I sit and wonder
The lightning screams back at the thunder
Watching it all, there were times of regret
My own mistakes I didn’t omit
Each moment I saw, it was harder to bare
All the explicit content and proof I’m going under
Written by: Caitlin Lambert
poem #233
